Good thing they got in touch with me before I got in touch with you

It's a real funny thing. I actually think it's pretty ironic. All in all, it just proves to me that I was right. I love you more than anything, I really fuckin do. But while I'm fuckin lovin you, you're fuckin her. You can't give up that which you're used to, that which you want more than anything else, for that which you need. You're weak. Don't tell me my love is enough because it's not.  I'm not enough for you, and I never will be. When I said I couldn't trust you, I really meant it. Loving you has probably brought on the most pain I've ever put myself through, but I intentionally put myself through it anyway. I intentionally held on to this self inflicted torture because I love you. 

I think the best overall part of tonight's situation though is that, today, I made up my mind. I decided that you really do genuinely love me and that whatever insecurities I felt, I would try my hardest to squash. For you. I think it's funny that I called you four times. I think it's a God-sent that your phone was off because I would have been the fool saying "Hey, I love you, and I don't care about it anymore. I want to work on this because I know we have no other option. I cannot be without you." real funny. All I can really say is that it's a good thing they got in touch with me before I got in touch with you, considering I'm only your "ex that's been begging for you to take me back."

"You can hold any girl that you like, Fall in love when it's easy at night But, you'll wake up wondering why she ain't ever something better. When you're lost and you've run out of road, Find what I already know. In the end close is all there is But you won't find this. There's once in a lifetime, And there's once in a while, And the difference between the two is about a million miles. Oh, you might get lucky while the moon is looking on, But in the truth of the morning, the stars will be long gone."




In closing, I just want to say: "watch how fast that ass fade in to the past"