Circles

I feel like everything's pointless. I've lost motivation in everything i do. I don't know who to go to. My mind is just clogged up with more thoughts than it can handle. I'm just plain confused. Confused about my own feelings, and confused about what i want in life. Like.. there's nothing meaningful in life anymore. I feel like I’m going backward instead of forward. I don’t know why. I wish more than anything that I were still me. I don't know who I am anymore. I feel like I'm dead but breathing. I don't know what to do. I don't know where to start. I just want to feel alive.